It was hard for me to sleep that night. I was thinking of Gerard, Not only him but Frank as well.

What was going to happen now? How was I supposed to choose?

I loved them both! … or did I? 

I rolled my head to the side to see my digital clock. It was 4:30 am.

I decided to get up and go for a walk. So I got changed into my jeans, skull hoodie and chucked on a pair of converse. I wore my hair down and pulled the hood over my head.

I walked out of the house and into the cold, wet street. As I walked and passed many house … (probably full of fucking happy people) I saw Frank! He was in the local park on one of the swings.

I ran up behind him and screamed, “BOO!” while I shook his back.

He screamed like a little girl then fell to the ground. I started to laugh. He got up and looked at my evilly but started to laugh as well. Then we both stopped and looked at each other in silence. It was awkward for a moment, so I sat down on one of the wet swings, Frank followed.

“What you doing here at this time of day?” I started to swing a little, dragging my feet on the ground.

“I could ask you the same thing” He replied with a cheesy grin.

“I asked first!!” I said as I gave him a little punch on the shoulder.

“Taryn…”

“Yep! Frankie doodle!” I giggled.

He laughed before replying, “Do … Do you love…”

“Love what Frank? Chocolate? Cause if that was going to be the question… Yes frank... Yes I do!”

“No, No Taryn I’m being serious here… Do you love Gerard?”

I was shocked to hear that, especially from Frank.

“I don’t know!” I answered truthfully.

Frank stood up in front of me. So I stood up as well. We were only inches apart.

“I love you Taryn. I know you’ve already heard me say that… but it’s the truth. I thought you have some kind of chemistry with Gerard. I didn’t want to hurt him by being with you. So I let him love you, even if it’s going to haunt me for the rest of my life. Even if it’s by letting you go. Gerard has always been my best friend. I love you, but he love’s you too. I need to hear you say you love Gerard. I need to hear you don’t love me. It’s the only way I’ll get over you. I hope...”

… TO BE CONTINUED.

oke ill tell u the story y...

Oke there is this guy at my skool his name is pat. hes an asshole.

He is kind of popular.

and he is a player.

i didnt no about this... then so yea..

i had liked pat for a while and he was a really nice guy. and then i found out from my friend that he had liked  me. (for nearly over a year.) but he had never told me. So then i got his msn addy and started flirting with him. (only because he was flirting with me.. like saying.. omg taryn ur so sexy,.. blah blah.) okies?.. and so we got into a closer realationship. and we became a litle more then friends.. but the thing was. he was still dating this girl named naomi. Then a week before valentines day he broke up with her. (pplz said he did it to be with me).. so i waited and waited for the question.. but it never came. Oke.. so it was 3 days brfoe valentines day and i was in the ampitheatre..)or wateva) waiting for my friend so we could both go to netball. then i saw right in front of me Pat flirting with naomi his ex!. they were literaly all over each other. I got really angry and was really sad so i cried! then wen i went home i told all my friend  what he had done. they wer also mad at him and startted abusing him over hotmail... the he started to talk to me bout ehat he had done to be abused and all.. so i answer.. and he didnt take it and now he's saying shit bout me.and we r in a big fight!! i hate him.. for breaking my fucking heart!!!

A few minutes had passed and it was still dead silent.

Until finally she spoke…

Tori’s P.O.V

“But you’re a … you’re his… How could he? Why did he?” I stuttered as I finally began to feel my muscles working again and my blood now flowing.

Ryan didn’t answer.

Everyone knew that jay was an alcoholic, druggy, and a nymphomaniac. But know one knew he was this bad to rape his own fucking brother!!

I walked closer and then closer to Ryan till our bodies were merely inches apart.

“I have no idea how you are feeling right now Ryan but just remember I am always there for you.” I gave him a hug. Our cheek pressed against each other’s. His face was warm and wet. So was mine. I felt so guilty for hurting him. Even though he also said he wanted nothing more then a friendship.

But just at that moment, for one split second… this amazing feeling jolted like lightning through my veins to my heart. I jumped away from him. I looked at him. He looked totally different.  Even though he was sad, he seemed to light up the room.

My heart skipped five beats.

“Are you ok?” Ryan asked as he actually seemed a lot happier.

I love you Ryan… I’ve loved you ever since I saw you, But I was just to blind to see…

That’s what I wished I had told him, but it didn’t seem like the right time and not long ago I had broken his heart…. He’d be over me by now. Seeing through me. Seeing how stupid he was to fall for a girl who didn’t even love him back. Seeing how there were many other fishes In the sea that he could have. Man was I stupid to not have seen him. I guess the saying is true… Love is blind…

But I couldn’t let that all get in the way. Ryan was still my friend and he had been through so much. He needed my support and comfort.

Why don’t you ay here for a couple of days?” I said

“Thank you” he replied as once again our bodies formed their ways into a hug.

His shaking fragile hurt body against mine was unbearable.

In was in her house, in her room, on her chair. Away from jay (my older brother.)

“Do what to you? What did he do? What happened? She said as I cried.

I couldn’t respond. My throat was sore from all the weeping and the tears didn’t seem like they wanted to stop their show of waterfalls.

I couldn’t keep it in anymore. “I just… I don’t want the same thing to happen to me like it happened to Taryn.” I spilled.    

I looked up yo see her eyes were on the verge of blowing up. Her mouth dropped to the floor and her skin went ghostly white.

“You’re…you’re brother hit you.” Her voice went high pitched and quiet. She started to cry as well.

“No” I replied

“Then what?” she asked looking a little more relived.

“I don’t want to keep it a secret anymore. I don’t want to make the problem worse. I was too scared to tell anyone. But I thought about Taryn and what happened to her. An I realized that I just have to tell you.”

THEN WHAT! WHAT THE FUCK DID HE FUCKING DO TO YOU!” Tori screamed as I felt her anger and deep sorrow forming inside of her.

“MY BROTHER FUCKING RAPED ME!!” *oh god oh god oh god!!! I hope to DEATH no 1 else heard me* I thought as Tori stood there. Not moving, not breathing, not blinking… too shock to do anything.

I sighed deeply as I stared into the eyes of the true image of which were the strange figure. I lost my grip of the bat and sighed again.

“Who goes there?”, He said “Who goes there!!??” He repeated once more before laughing at my stupidity.

My anger grew larger with every passing second. It was as if I was a balloon and I was about to pop. “RYAN ROSS!” I shouted “ YOU ARE IN SO MUCH FUCKING TROUBLE!!”

Ryan fell to the ground from laughed hysterically.

“Ryan! This is soooooo not funny! You scared the shit out of me!” I cried out impatiently. “If this gets round to our friends…” I lowered my voice so it was just a mere whisper, “You are dead!” and at that last word he stopped laughing. His smile had turned into a little pout and I also got a feeling that he was actually scared of me.

He got up from the floor and brushed himself. Then looked up at me with those... those eyes!

I looked away. I wasn’t going to fall for it again. Well… not like last time anyway. “So…What the FUCK! are you doing in my kitchen…”, I paused and looked at the glass cup filled with water. “… and why do you have a glass of water.”

“Geez woman!” He cried sarcastically “It took me ages to get here! I got de hydrated walking from all the way from my house to here! So I was thirsty and thought I might have had a drink.”

“Wait… What the fuck!? What do you mean it took you ages to get here?! You live 10 minutes away from me! And how did you get into he house?”

“Umm… oke this is embarrassing but the only way I could get into the house was through the doggy door. The thing was I got stuck half way. So I had to brake off the flap of the door and squeeze the rest of my body in. But I will pay for a new flap. I promise!” He told me as we walked into my room.

I looked down at the floor and laughed quietly. So that Ryan couldn’t hear me. But I guess he did because he blushed the darkest shade of red you could possibly imagine.

We got into the room and I sat down on my bed while Ryan got a chair from my under my study desk.

“Ah…Ryan?” I said awkwardly.

“Yea” He replied.

“Well before you didn’t answer my question. Which was… What the hell are you doing here? I said already knowing part of the answer. Well the only reason he could want to see me was about us.

“Well I’m here because I need to talk to you about us…”

Wow… wat a guess! *Note to self: Stop sarcasm when I’m in times of difficultly*

“ It’s about the whole … you love frank, I love you, Frank loves, well I don’t know if you know this already but Frank loves Taryn.”

Hmm, thanks Ryan you made my day! *Note to self please stop sarcasm … NOW!*

“Mmhm, and why did you have to choose ONE freaking thirty in the morning!!” I said seriously rasing an eyebrow.

There was a long silence after that. Ryan started to fiddle with his hands.

Oh my god.

The only times when Ryan fiddle with his hands meant something was terribly wrong.

“Ryan?” I said a little scared

He looked up. I saw all the happiness and joy from his face wash away. Tears came running down his face as he bit his lip and made it bleed!

“Ryan what’s wrong! What’s happened?”

“There is another reason I came here…” he said as he shook him head from side to side.

“I tried to forget about all of it. I tried to be happy. I tied to laugh!” He stopped talking then buried his face into his hands. “It’s so horrible. I never new something could happen to e like this! I never new my own brother could do this to me…”

“Do what to you? What did he do? What happened? …

I twisted and turned over and over again in my bed. It was a hot night so I kicked off the quilt cover impatiently and watched it slither down to the floor. As I watched it rest helplessly I heard a quiet yet sharp shuddering noise.

My body froze. I began to shake a little with worry. I stayed on my bed as quietly as I could and listened. It was dead silent but I still had a feeling something was wrong. So I got out of bed and tiptoed quietly to the door. I leaned against the door and listened carefully… still no noise.

Maybe it was just...

Well it could have been…

Umm… what did the noise come from!?

I decided to cheek it out. I opened the door as quietly as I could. I peeked out a bit and looked around, but nothing was there except the lonely darkness creeping up the walls.

I walked through the hallway and down then stairs. I turned and walked into the lounge room. DAM! Still nothing was there… I guess it was just my imagination.

I headed back to my room when all of a sudden the tap in the kitchen turned on.

My body froze once again. My breathing became deeper and louder and I could feel the blood rush away from my face.

I stumbled across the room and peered in to the kitchen. I tilted my head a bit so that whatever/ whoever was in there couldn’t see me.

As I searched the kitchen with wide horrified eyes I caught glance of a shadowy figure standing by the sink. Who had a glass cup in … its … hand?

I felt around the side of me for something I could use as defense, but still looking at the mysterious figure. I grabbed hold of a baseball bat… (Yes... a baseball bat...:0)

                ~~FR~ A couple of hours ~ FR~~

*Evil*: so that’s what happened! Her parents had abused her and she didn’t tell anyone. She didn’t want anyone to be brought into the pain she was in so she didn’t tell anyone. ARG!! That made me so mad!! I was her close friend and she couldn’t trust me! She’s so fucking stupid!! If I were in her position I would fight back and tell the police! But Noooooooooo she didn’t tell anyone!

No one.

*Good*: No tori!! NO!! Don’t say that!! She was scared and alone! And how the hell could you fight back a boxer… idiot!

Gd: She’s NOT stupid!!

Evl: Yes she is!

Gd: No she’s not!

Evl: Yes she fuckin well is!!

Gd: NO she fuc-

The angel and the devil in my mind suddenly stopped fighting.

I felt someone’s hand rub my back. Possibly to try and say that I wasn’t alone with this and everybody was suffering as much as me… wow. Hand gestures could say things that could not be said, especially in times of need and… awkward silences.

I was in the Plasmo killer with frank, Ryan, Brendon, Chelsea, Siobhan, and Mikey.

Hmmm that made me think a little. Siobhan and Mikey. They were different. They were closer then usual and very cuddly. Was there something I didn’t know?

“Umm… hey” Ryan said as he sat down next to me.

“Hey” I replied.

He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and rubbed it. “I know how you feel and don’t worry everything will be okay now.”

What is he doing? It feels like he is raping my shoulder!! He keeps on rubbing it! This was getting …weird.

“Umm… yea” I replied as I felt him squeezed me into a really tight hug. ( o_O << me!! )

Oke I knew Ryan had a thing for me and it was nice to know somebody liked you. The thing was I didn’t like him back… well not in ‘that way’ anyway. He was a good friend. We had our good times and our bad.

It was time for the ‘talk’. The ‘talk’ was this thing I wasn’t very good at L but either way I had to do it.

“Oke Ryan can we go some where else? I need to talk to you.”

He used one of his lady KILLER smiles and replied “Sure hunn.”

“Oke the thing I wanted to talk about is… about us.” I didn’t want to see him get hurt but it was the only way.

He gave the biggest smile ever! OH CRAP! He thought I wanted to take it a step further. Shit I said it all wrong now it will break his heart even more.

“…and it’s not a good thing L”  I looked down at my white converse and fiddled around with my fingers.

I could tell that his smile had shattered into a million pieces. “What, what do you mean it’s not a good thing?

“ I know you like me” I said now forcing myself to look at him.

“Well… isn’t that a good thing?”

“No not for me…” His eyes were watering and I just couldn’t look at his face anymore. I mean come on! It would ruin me if I were told by that someone special that they didn’t have the same feelings towards me.

He didn’t say anything he just sat there looking at the floor trying not to cry.

Now I had to say that stupid sentence I’d thought id never use. “I just want to be friends.”

He looked up and I saw his heart build up the strength to say… well to say something!! “Me two.”

Aww poor guy he was so hopeless in love. He was a popular guy and had his own band with Brendon and some other random peoples. He had nothing to loose… except me. I know how much he loved me but I had grown out of our love and fell… for someone else. It was hard though, to see him with one of my best friends.

It was Frank.

I think He was going out with Taryn. I saw them hold hands, smile and look into each other’s eyes like they were a couple when they came to the Plasmo killer. (Unusually late as well.) 

I loved him so much it hurt me. No I’m serious… it literally hurt me. Oke it was my fault for being hurt.

Oke long story short… I got into the habit of cutting my wrist. It was everything that made me do it, all the schoolwork, Taryn’s big scare, Frank and Ryan. Also random little things just built up on one another and I couldn’t take it anymore.

So I wanted to end my life. I wanted to die. Nothing was left for me to hold on to this world. My parents were very distant being lawyers and all. I was also an only child. So for my whole life I had been alone.

Lost in he world of, sex, drugs, dying, and terrorism.

Stupid world…

(oke I know that wasn’t the best story but it will be more kinky and exciting (hopefully) in the next story. P.S tori it will still be your p.o.v teheh!

I shook my head to try and get back my vision. OH SHIT!  NOOOO!! THIS COULD NOT BE HAPPENING TO ME!! AAAARRRGGG! HOW COULD I LET HIM GET ME! 

It was Gerard.  He’d been trying to get revenge on me by spooking the HELL outa me!

“Oke! Oke!  You got me!” I said as I looked around the room. “Where’s Mikey? Isn’t he part of the evil scheme you just played!”

“Nah he left to go visit Siobhan.”

Oke that was odd… and not only was that odd but for some reason Gerard was still on me, Just looking at me. Nothing more nothing less…

Gerard licked his lips.

“EEWWW!! Gerard! What are you thinking of?!… Is it me as a donut?”

He smirked. Oke now that made me more uncomfortable. Then suddenly Gerard pecked me!!… Alright I have to admit that wasn’t really the right word to use but what I meant to say is he kissed me :o!!

I just laid there stunned I had no idea what to do.

Then his lips engaged with my once again. What was he doing? Was this a joke or was this serious?

He finally pulled away. His black hair drooped over and touched my forehead. His eyes were red and black (eyeliner), his warm breath over my lips.

“Gerard...I...u...Frank” I stuttered as he released me from his grip. I got up and sat on my bed, Gerard followed.

“Taryn i… this is really hard to say because you’re my closest friend and it might shock you but I love you! I have loved you from the first day I met you till now, no sorry…till the end of my life! Maybe even beyond my life!” he paused looked deeply into my eyes. “Its so confusing I cant explain it. I’ve been confused for…well it feels like an eternity. I knew I had something for you since I met you…but I only realized at the start of this year. Because I was too blind to see how beautiful and intelligent you were-“He stopped talking right then and there.

“Gerard I don’t know what to say…” I started as I felt his arms grabbed me by the waist. He caressed it and he head leant forward to kiss me. I didn’t do anything I was sto shocked to do anything. I just sat there on my bed as we kissed and kissed. It seemed like hours. But I was only seconds.

It was all going too fast. What about frank? Did I realy love him or did I love Gerard? I was so confused. I needed to think. So I backed away from Gerard and ran out the door and into the living room. I felt so light headed my mind was going BONKERS!! It was twirling an spinning in all directions and I felt a dizziness fall over my eyes. I couldn’t take I any more an fell to the ground as (once again) a blinding darkness swept over me.

“Taryn?! Taryn!!?” I heard an echoing voice wipe passed my ears.

I rolled over on my bed and fell to the ground “OWWW!!! HOLLY FUCK!”  I screamed as I rubbed my head. I looked up to see Gerard laughing his arse off.

“Oke what am I doing here? And why the fuck are you laughing!!” I stumbled but manage to get up all the same.

“Sorry it was funny… Um you’re here cause I jumped on you and you hit your head on the desk. I’m so sorry …really! I am!” He said as he went up to me and held my hand pleadingly and kneeled down “Please my queen forgive thy clumsy one!”

THANK-FUCKING-GOD!! I thought as I forgave Gerard and made him get me a glass of water. Just to make time to my self.

So it wasn’t real.

It was a dream but it felt so real. I felt the kiss I felt him grabbing my hips and caressing them. It was too confusing my head started to hurt.

Gerard finally came in the room with a glass of water.

“Finally!” I said sarcastically. He smirked. Shit! I thought no! Not that smirk that makes my heart burn! Please stop being so amazing Gerard!

“Thanks Gerard. But I need my sleep now I’m really tired and my head hurts like hell!! No thanks to you!!!

I couldn’t believe it! She was gonna live with me! Maybe it will be the right time to tell her the truth. But I knew she had something special with Frank. I was so stupid for telling him that I loved her! I knew he loved her as well. It made everything worse. We began a fight for her love. I wanted to win her heart once she had settled in at my place, time for her to get to know me more. The real feelings I had for her since the start of high school. Wow!! I can’t believe it was only 4 years I had loved her… It seemed like a lifetime… a lifetime of pain.

I carried her luggage into the spare room.

“What do you guys want for dinner!” I shouted across the room from Mikey and Taryn. Who were playing…scrabble?? Wow that was strange.

Taryn came running into the kitchen. “You actually meant it?”

“Meant what?” I mumbled as I looked in the fridge.

“That you were going to really cook?”

“Yea I meant it. Why do you ask?” I turned around to see her about to roll around on the floor laughing.

And she did.

She laughed as she AND Mikey were rolling on the floor holding their stomachs.

“What’s so bad about me cooking?” I said a little sad.

Taryn got up and playfully put her hand on my shoulder, “ I’m going to say this in the nicest way possible! You are the worst cook I have ever known!”

Mikey started to cry he was so red in the face. He tried to get up but fell down again. He was laughing at me.

“Is – that – really – true?” He said between his harsh chuckles.

“OMG IT IS SO NOT THE TRUTH!!” I said angrily. I was a good cook. Well I knew I wasn’t the best but I wasn’t that bad…was I ?

“OH MY FUCKING GOD GERARD!!” Taryn said as she wiped the tears from her eyes. “You nearly burnt down the school once!!”

“Oke maybe I did, but that still doesn’t mean I’m a bad cook… does it?”

Mikey and Taryn stood there. There mouths dropped too the floor. They looked at each other then me and then repeated. They did that for 5 minutes then finally Taryn

.spoke.

“Oke then lets get take out!”

~~FF- after dinner takeout thingy...`FF~~

I plunked my self on the couch. Man I ate a lot. Taryn came into the room.

“Heyhey there” she said as she dropped on the couch next to me. “AWW man I think I ate toooooooo much! what bout u?”

“Yea! I’ve never eaten that much in my life!!” I said trying to reach for the remote on the coffee table.

Taryn started to laugh at my attempt but then I gabbed the pillow on the side of me and hit her. MUHUHAHAHAHA!! (lol)

“OWWWWW!! OMG u r soooooo gonna pay for that!!” She reached for the HUGE pillow on the side of her and laughed evilly.

“NOOOOOOOOOO!!!” I screamed as I tried to get up but my tummy hurt too much. “Please please” I started to beg as I kneeled down and I placed my hands together and gave her my best puppy dog eyes.

“AWWW how could I say no too you” Taryn looked at me with her saddest expression. But then it grew to an evil smirk then… WACK! I was hit right in the head.

“MUHUHAHAHAHA!!” she laughed as she ran up the stairs and hid.

OH MAN!! She was gonna pay back for that… but how evil could I be… muhuhahahah …

Taryn’s P.O.V

I ran up the stairs laughing at what I had did YES!! I had got him back and I also resisted the eyes!! YAY it was the first time I could pull away from those eyes.

I ran into my bedroom and hid in the closet. I waited for like 5 minutes till I heard some footsteps stomping loudly into my room. O OHHH.

“Taryn..” I heard Gerard’s say in that really creepy voice he sometimes does. “come out to play!!”

I waited in the closet for about 8 more seconds when I suddenly had the urge to pee!!

God I couldn’t take it any longer. I quickly ran out of the closet and went for the door. The only thing that could save me from being eaten alive by Gerard!! I stopped and looked around. What?? He wasn’t there? I started to get really spooked and then rushed for the toilets. A few moments after I walked out of the toilets it was dead silent.

I searched the house and no one was there. Oke now I was getting really spooked! I couldn’t handle being alone!! So I went upstairs into my bedroom and closed the door.

I laid on my bed when I head some movement coming from my closet.

I sat right up in my bed. “NO BOOGYMAN PLEASE DON’T KILL ME!!”

I heard shuffling then an evil growl ..oke this was really freaking me out!! Then all of a sudden a …thing!!… pounced on me!…

no on with the story...

Name: Taryn
Age: 17
Description: medium length layered hair, coloured dark purple. big brown (seriosly BIG!) eyes. Fairy slim. 3 ear piercings on the bottom and one on the right top part of the ear.

Name: Bronte
Age: 17
Description: Average height, fairy slim, Dark brown curly hair with gold streaks. great big greenish/ bluish eyes.has 2 earing,a nose and belly piercings.


Name: Siobhan (pronounced shee-voun)
Age: 17
Description: Tall and lanky. really thin. dark brown eyes and the darkest brown hair with natural highlights. navel, nose and 1 near the eyebrow ( piercings )


Name: Chelsea
Age: 18
Description: Tall. agerage weight for her age. AND extremely curvey. dirty blonde shoulder length hair. Has allways got cherry cheeks. tounge and lower lip are also pierced


Name: Tori
Age: 17
Description: black hair with red streaks. between tall and average height. slightly curvy, blushes all the time. allways has a smile on her. 1 piercing below the lower lip. And on both her ears.

And there's also gonna be.. Gerard and mikey way. Ryan ross, brendon urie and frank Iero {HOTT!! all of em} []Lolz[] P!atd people will be comming in the story much later so wait!! lol